I just had the most fabulous evening and I decided I had to share. I just finished a dinner( I must point out that dinner consisted of a re-used jam jar filled with New Zealand Riesling, a radish and butter sandwich on whole grain bread, a sweet and sour grapefruit and an avocado that I dusted with salt- All were eaten with zero utensils), alone, eating slowly, sitting cross-legged, barefooted, listening to a whole album straight through and watching through my large window Wellington become lit with lights.
I thought to myself that I never had time for this back home. I was always rushing, doing a thousand things and trying to be there for 20 people. My me time, was when I slept, or when I drove to one of the 100 places I needed to drive to. I couldn't relax and just enjoy myself, fore even when I planned me time, a few hours later I would make up for it. I couldn't remember the last time I spent the whole afternoon reading and watching the sky. This is what I came to New Zealand for. To let me have my ME time. To let myself remember what it was like to let me be me.
I started making a list of things that were most definitely ME. It was fun! And I think most of you would agree with my life. If I met a new person tomorrow, this list would give them a sense of who I AM.
-I love wine, especially Riesling (Merlot can stay in my fathers cabinet)
- I love to dance (and not grinding the whole time!). I may get wild and look like I am intoxicated, but I am not.
-I prefer salty foods over sweet
-I prefer tea (the juicer the better) over coffee. Coffee after 2:00pm is dangerous. More than 1 cup and I will be awake the entire evening. Once I drank NyQuil in order to sleep, as it was 7am.
-Pictionary is my board game of choice
-I would pick a local small pub over a crowded large bar any day.
-My pet peeve is not being a team player.
-I could sit and read novels all day
-Must two people talk all day? I enjoy the silence 2 friends may share together.
-Everything in moderation! If you cant have fun being sober too, then do you fear reality?
-I love being barefooted and in jeans. BUT, I also love socks!
-Screw nail polish
-Take me to see an independent movie at a small theater, or a band playing at a tiny pub, and I am yours.
-My children will go to a Waldorf school
-We can learn from everyone, especially our enemies.
- I don't believe in violence, except on a pitch.
-I love showing affection to my friends
-I WILL eat with my hands. Silverware optional
-Let me sing...I realize I don't know the lyrics well.
-I enjoy cooking WITH people.
-I have no control with it comes to chips, potatoes, fries and sour patches. Eat until empty.
-Be sensitive when criticising Harry Potter or Lost.
-I cross my fingers when I don't want to forget a point. This way, the thought is on my fingers, but I may still ACTIVELY listen to you, and not just wait for my turn to speak.
-I like to ask you questions, and yes, I am interested in what you have to say, but do not forget to ask me questions too. Everyone likes to share.
-If I talk to you, and seem interested in what you have to say, I probably am interested. This does not mean that I want to sleep with you. I just like to understand and get to know people.
-My fingers can withstand the cold and ice longer than most people.
-I love baths.
-Life is shades of grey to me...unless it regards attractiveness. Then its black and white.
I could go on, but I made my point to myself. Its good that I am taking care of myself. Its good that I made time for ME. This list is important. I need to remember many of these things, especially when I am working within Social Work. It can be a depressing job where I can easily lose myself. This list is important so I can find myself quicker.
You know you COULD do this in Wisco if you just ignored all of the people you THINK you have to please. Come back to me sister :)
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